Cracked Open

I am cracked open.

Maybe it’s the supermoon in whatever sign it happens to be in.

Maybe it’s moving into harvest and I’m breaking open like the earth to reveal all it’s mysteries inside.

Maybe it’s just time to let go of shit I’ve been holding onto my whole life.  Stories that no longer serve me.  That simply weigh down the light that wants to shine from within.

And I know I’m not alone.

I know there are thousands if not hundreds of thousands of us out there in the same boat.  Tears flowing, wondering how to let go of this burden and find the freedom that surrounds us.

And then I, quite acciedently, read two of my friends new books at the same time.

To be fair…one is sort of a workbook…so I’m using that everyday and just finished reading the other friends book.  (Which is her incredible journey of deepening her shamanic practice through journeying with sacred mushroom medicine…and it’s a hell of a ride…I highly recommend it as an intense and incredible read.)

But this amazing synchronicity happened that I wanted to share…in case there are those out there having a bit of an emotional roller coaster and doing that Cracked Open thing I was talking about.

I was reading my friend Shonagh Home’s Book called Love and Spirit Medicine,

loveandspiritAnd I get to this section and it reads,

“We can’t solve our problems with the same mindset that created them.” –Shonagh Home

I immediately stop reading and go to my office and pick up Sadee Whip’s book called Radical Habits. The beginning of the book is amazing and I was struck when reading it of this idea she presents as looking at our thoughts and beliefs as a scale.  And the scale is tilted in the direction of your life’s experiences.  And if you just try to think differently it won’t really stick because in your soul contents…in your energy field you are FEELING this other thought.  And the way to shift that is to fill your life experiences with a different kind of thought.

“…as we begin to seek consciousness, as we actively set out on a path of greater awareness, it is absolutely crucial that we don’t just practice thinking better thoughts.  We must begin to collect new…experiences.” — Sadee Whip

For instance, most people on the planet just want to be loved.  And for a lot of the time, we go around feeling unlovable for one reason or another.  It’s weird.  I do it and I’m totally conscious of doing it.  And yet, I can’t seem to stop doing it.

So…the third piece of this little synchronicity thingy I was having is this…I was talking with a friend of mine who is a coach…her name is Ariella Shuster and she’s quite amazing…and she told me of a practice she was doing and suggested it would help with some of my core issues around being unable to receive.

Here is the exercise she shared with me:

You email some of your close friends…I chose 5.  And in this email you tell them something like this…

“I’m working on a core issue around receiving and it would mean a lot to me if you could email or text me for the next 3 days and tell me something special about myself, or simply that you love me.  My job is to receive it and not offer anything in return, including an email thank you.  Thank you for being in my inner love bomb circle and I love you very much.”

Now let me put it all together for you…

Oh, Here is what Sadee’s book looks like…it’s fantastic…she gives you the meaning of life and then gives you  a years worth of exercises to step into your brilliance.  Buy it.


Deep Breath…

All three of these amazing women are spot on.  And the message is so clear I can’t ignore it.  And not that I’m telling you what to do or anything, but you shouldn’t either.

Now is the time to look at all that stuff in our closets…to literally Crack it open…and get to that bottom old core shit and look at it.  Don’t judge it…don’t blame it…just be with it.  And in that space, breathe.

Then figure out how to create situations in your life that are opposite of that, that support you and empower you instead of tearing you down and demoralizing you.

If you are feeling unlovable….find out how to get into situations where you feel loved.  I can tell you, receiving the love from my inner circle of friends feels absolutely amazing.  If you are feeling unworthy…find ways that you are and start really locking into the knowingness of that.

But that’s the piece…the piece that can’t be forgotten…you have to make sure you are logging these emotions, these love bombs as what they are.

When my friends email me, as I’m reading it…I’m saying to myself that I can receive this.  That it feels good.  That I am a great receiver…

And it feels…good.

Love ? I love love love you.

Love ? I love love love you. (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

So, I am changing my mindset…I am a great receiver…and I’m getting to weigh that scale with actual memories and feelings in real time of that being true…and I can honestly say, I can feel a shift.

I am cracked open.  And that openness is allowing floods of love to come streaming into me.  And by George, I’m really receiving it!

Now you try.


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